MAKE ADHD YOUR BITCH
Do you know who is calling ADHD a superpower?
People who have learnt to manage their ADHD. (Me now)
BEFORE (past me) you learn to manage it, ADHD feels like:
Emotional Dysregulation
that is so bad you look bipolar. In fact mine was so bad that I nearly killed myself a few times, that was an even bigger risk when you add in ADHD's...
Impulsivity
that got me a stalker, saw me getting into vans with strange men because they had drugs and drink driving...and drug driving...
Rejection Sensitivity
that feels like DEATH. Seriously, like the smallest slight from anyone, even people I didn't care about felt like I was dying. Like something inside of me was simultaneously on fire and imploding at the same time. Any rejection was a confirmation that I was...
Feeling Broken
I was broken, disabled, brain damaged. So what was the point? Superpower my arse. I hated myself, I hated my life, I hate my brain and I hated any dick head who told me it was a SuPeRPoWeR...seriously brah...fuck off.
Burnout
that landed me in bed for months at a time and in this horrible cycle of 'Go Time/Die Time' that seemed to never get me anywhere. I would make some progress and then lose it all after spending weeks in bed.
No Motivation
I wanted to change but I was exhausted and felt like I'd tried so much already and I couldn't bare to try another thing that doesn't fucking work! A to do list, a new notebook, just 'doing it', all the crap they tell you but just couldn't, wouldn't STICK!
Resonating?
I get it, I've been there - but this week (check out yesterdays email on your past self, if you wanna hear the goss about my week from hell) I've truly seen HOW much I have changed and how seriously fucking POWERFUL my method is for managing ADHD.
I am now:
Emotionally Regulated
Even when my period is due, even when the cat might be dying, even when someone is a bitch to me, even when I have work to do, even when my partner is away.
Thoughtful
I take time to consider my actions and I NEVER put myself in harms way anymore. I follow my intuition and have very strong boundaries.
Untriggerable
I thought carefully about using this word before writing it, because its a BIG statement. But this week I have had:
- a commenter tell me my hair was awful
- someone tell me I am negative and should stop swearing,
- 60 people unsubscribe from my newsletter because they don't like my authentic new style,
- A commenter tell me I should learn more
- Probably about 15 people telling me I am wrong
- One commenter tell me I am in collusion with Satan! :D
(check out the images at the bottom haha)
ALL whilst recovering from the flu, period due, full moon, running a business, hubby leaving, a 3000 word essay due and cat being sick!
SO yeh, I'm gonna go with UNFUCKINGTRIGGERABLE.
Empowered
Yes, ADHD is my superpower now...yawn.
Energised
I understand my physical cycles and feel good.
Motivated
I feel like I could take over the world, and bit by bit I am doing just that. I can't wait to work now and I am excited to be alive.
And I so desperately want this for you.
I hate seeing you still struggling, thinking that things can't change, because they really can, and with some pretty simple strategies.
